Saturday, March 19, 2005
Feeling low
Listening to "神呀!救救我吧!" from 陈小春 reminds me the famous flash produced by Showgood. Back to my Master study in STJU, I watched this flash with Kelvin and Xurefu in their dorm. I reviewed this flash and some other good ones that we watched at that time. They remind me a lot of my past years. I can't stop remembering my life in China and my life in Pittsburgh.
When I first arrived at Pittsburgh, Kelvin and I lived in an aparment on S Millvale Ave. Zhong, zz and rong lived upstairs. We spent 1.5 years in that apartment building with many black bros. That neighborhood is not safe. Our apartment was once broken into. And my packages from UPS lost twice. The apartment was hot in the summer but without air conditioner. However, I had a great time there. I could sit on the floor in Kelvin's room and chat with him after meal. I could attend zz's parties and play cards till midnight. I could walk to school through Devonshire and the parking lot discussing with Kelvin on whatever we liked, in sun or in snow.
Now I live in a much better apartment in Austin. It is in a very good community with fitting room, pool, air conditioner. I drive to work everyday. I earn more money than I did in Pittsburgh. But I feel not as happy as before. From yesterday, my feeling lonely gets stronger and stronger. I tried to sit down and write my paper, but I couldn't concentrate. I just refreshed some websites that I often visit again and again or watched some nonsense TV programs aimlessly in order to make myself feel better. I don't know. Maybe I should work harder to forget everything else. Maybe it is just because the song is too sad.
Anyway, I should be happy with what I have. Compared with many others, I'm fortunate enough. I just can't get rid of the feelings once a while.
Tomorrow is better, I believe, I'll be fine!
When I first arrived at Pittsburgh, Kelvin and I lived in an aparment on S Millvale Ave. Zhong, zz and rong lived upstairs. We spent 1.5 years in that apartment building with many black bros. That neighborhood is not safe. Our apartment was once broken into. And my packages from UPS lost twice. The apartment was hot in the summer but without air conditioner. However, I had a great time there. I could sit on the floor in Kelvin's room and chat with him after meal. I could attend zz's parties and play cards till midnight. I could walk to school through Devonshire and the parking lot discussing with Kelvin on whatever we liked, in sun or in snow.
Now I live in a much better apartment in Austin. It is in a very good community with fitting room, pool, air conditioner. I drive to work everyday. I earn more money than I did in Pittsburgh. But I feel not as happy as before. From yesterday, my feeling lonely gets stronger and stronger. I tried to sit down and write my paper, but I couldn't concentrate. I just refreshed some websites that I often visit again and again or watched some nonsense TV programs aimlessly in order to make myself feel better. I don't know. Maybe I should work harder to forget everything else. Maybe it is just because the song is too sad.
Anyway, I should be happy with what I have. Compared with many others, I'm fortunate enough. I just can't get rid of the feelings once a while.
Tomorrow is better, I believe, I'll be fine!
# posted by yaping @ 9:17 PM 
