The World of Little Little Bird

I know something is going to happen. I know that thing is coming soon. I know that thing is likely to go my way. I know that thing is already out of my control at this time point. I feel the anxiety.
I know I should simply sit still and wait peacefully but I can't. I know I should hope for the best and prepare for the worst but I can't. I feel the anxiety. It is the same anxiety as when I clicked the show score button after I finished my GRE. It is the same anxiety as when I waited for a US graduate school offer. It is the same anxiety when I submitted my first paper to DAC and didn't know whether it was accepted or not.
Among all, one thing is common. That is I have put a lot of efforts into that and I do want that. On the other hand, one thing is different this time. I promise to keep this to myself only until I get the result and I don't know how soon the result is coming. Maybe this week, maybe next week, maybe next month or maybe the year end. Or maybe I just pushed myself too hard.
Good luck to myself.
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